So over the last few days, I've been faced with a few challenges, so to speak. While in the process of gathering things and taking steps to remain in Montana for a while post VISTA and applying to college (again), I've had things shoved in my face that have made me want to take a few steps back and reconsider where I really want to be and why, and where I really feel my life is headed. While in the process of doing this, I consider my friends from college. Most of the people I had been close with seem to either a) still be in college or, if they've graduated b) are figuring their life out and seem to already have some direction that I seem to be lacking. This confuses me, as I feel like I missed something in college- the process of being serious and determining where I wanted to be and what I aspired to do.
Meanwhile, there's drama in boy land and my car is still broken. This doesn't really help in the figuring stuff out department, but it certainly helps in the taking two steps back and reassessing the situation.
Hopefully, life will sort itself out. It always does, right? Maybe this is a sign that I'm really not supposed to be in Montana.
Beth! I was catching up on my RSS feeds and just read this. It made me think about where I was until verrry recently - I felt the same way. Here I was, surrounded by these people who, like me (or so I thought), had their lives totally mapped out the day they graduated high school... and four short years later, there we all were. Anyway, I just wanted to say don't put too much pressure on yourself to get everything figured out! It's true, I skipped my 5-year HS reunion because I was more than a little embarassed over all of it (not only was I degree-less, I was single AND had put on more than a few pounds), but when I finally realized what it was that I wanted to do, I realized that I really did know the entire time, in a sense. I will be returning to college, as an undergrad, shortly before my 26th birthday, and I will not be out of school until after my 30th birthday... so... there you go. If you're ever in Madison you should let me know, we could have a girls' night and bitch about this stuff and life in general :)
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