Intense. Like Camping.

Over the last few weeks, a few big things have happened. I have somehow gotten into a masters program in the Cities. And, while this is a great opportunity, I'm scared. Horrified. I am not convinced I'll stick around. I'm struggling to land a, "real," job, and everyone I know is leaving or about to embark on a new adventure/ chapter in their own life. Some of the relationships I was feeling secure about here have, per the usual, somehow managed to backfire. I'm feeling self-loathing and icky. And gross. And I'm really tired of the shit storm of my life. If it doesn't get better soon, I'm considering returning to Big Sky Country, and starting again. A friend of mine today questioned my desire to start over again, while another noted that Montana isn't just greener pastures. I'm just really tired.